Under Silver Birch Tree

Hey, I can't post stuff for these few days
I'll still linger around but right now my priority is my Final Project for my degree.. its a little too late cause theres just another 7 days and counting..
so just...
I pray to god all  goes smoothly cause I can't catch a break right now..
*sigh* dear God almighty, Please help me get through another obstacle to better myself.
Amin

at 25

a person without work
a person who is unsure
a person without income
a person who has nowhere to be
a bum

depending on family
depending on friends
depending on luck
a non-independent one
a loser

no future
hates past
no idea
hates unnecessary commitments
no interests in 'Common Interests'
hates manipulative company
a hopeless introvert when it comes to big crowds

indecisive
depress
procrastinator

I will see to it that tomorrow brings better light
May my window be open inviting tomorrow's positivity to join my sorrow party

1. Who is yourself at home?

• A pretentious do-gooder

2. Who is yourself besides a friend?

• A quiet bimbo
• A disposable company

3. 5 things that you aspire but have not achieved yet.

• A life I'm in-charge of
• A passport that I control
• Home without drama
• Life partner still unknown
• A truly happy family picture

4. Who is your spouse's name?

• I imagined it would be James Dean but he's dead

5. 5 things you like most about your partner.

• Blue jeans
• White shirt
• Rebel without a cause
• Fast cars
• Dead

6. The date when you couple?

• I was watching a movie and there he was... in it

7. The bitter memories with your partner.

• That time when I watch a documentary of how he died

8. The theme song of your love.

• Nirvana - Come as you are

9. What changes you want to see from your partner?

• Finding a replacement requires me to travel the world.. and time

10. Tag 10 of your other friends.

• Do I have other friends?

From my balcony, not drinking coffee

I was watching this movie
'Begin Again'
cause having the biggest crush on Mark Ruffalo is eternal
I finished and will not elaborate and be a Spoiler.

I find it odd that emotionally I can relate to the situation
People who know me, don't really know me
as in what I like.. my preference in anything..
I have never met anyone who actually genuinely understands me
Parents? yeah they love me unconditionally,
doesn't mean they know me, my beautiful and ugly
I don't share to avoid feelings

I don't like remixes, I don't like meaningless pop songs
I don't like over-reacting, I don't like sultry music
I don't like jumping up and down, I don't like forceful vibes
with words that I will never understand.

*put your hands up in the air, wave/shake'em like you just don't care*
some sort of exercise? a mass movement? twerk?
What!? Temporary happiness is cool... temporarily
after it all ends, all thats left is emptiness

Emotion, Heart and Soul.. now those are real things
there is less of those, why? Cause they're no fun?
Well whatever but it's real, but everyone has different ways of letting it out

*sipping imaginary Hot Chocolate that I wish I had in my hand*

Recently I applied to do my internship overseas..