Under Silver Birch Tree

Movies gives us the impression that everyone is understanding, no matter how offensive words become, how hateful people turn out, there's always humor in life and everything works out in the end. the end, happily ever forever or whatever.

How is that ever our life?
I can't even relate to it in the most significant way..
I think Star Wars was closer to home rather than 'How I met you mother'..

Nobody has that perfect combo.. Yes we plan things and it could turn out as great as that routine of seeing your friends and talk and share and experience being dumb..

But then life hits us hard.. theres hospital bills, emergencies, accidents, family problems, getting ill, moving away, getting fired.. broke. I think that is fantasy, why? because I dreamed of one day having that kind of lifestyle, which is hell impossible.. never gonna happen.. just nope.

So back it all up.. I have this gutsy feeling.. that I hate problems.. I hate having to work things out, you might hate me and say that's harsh or cruel or inhumane, but peeps.. psychologically it's not surprising due to the fact that people just dump their problems at me, I'm not saying it's not ok, I do feel wanted, or needed or along that line but, then what.. they go around with their own buddies for happy time?

Do I not deserve happy time with you? Do I not deserve happyness?

Why do always have to match my time and effort to everyone elses?..

I have younger relatives like most of everyone, but does everyone have to manage your time to fit in your younger relative's schedule? Why am I treated like a child when the younger ones are treated fairly better..

Its not far for me to complain about it,
but I just don't have a pillar to lean on anymore,
Every night I feel empty, but depressed and I just look up to dear lord.

I just need to be hugged,
Just a good tight, arms tangled hug.
A smile would be nice too, just smile at me and say
'You're doing great, everything is gonna be Okay'
'You're trying very hard, you're doing a good job'
'You're fine, It's ok'
'You havent cried for so long, are you sure your fine'
.....

Everywhere around us, websites were popping up with Star Wars ads

People were talking non-stop about it

Billboards, posters, EDMS, games, radios and even musical or parody tributes to this epidemic of Epic-ness in 2015. So proud.. right?

Why this much publicity for a continuation of a movie franchise that took over 10 years to finally see the day of premier.

Is it that much more important that people aren't allowed to talk about it after watching the movie?
Is it some sort of unspoken taboo?

It just bogles my mind... as some deny to relate here...

To say the least, I read somewhere in a reliable source (9gag) a human broke out the spoilers and he got bashed up by a bunch of other humans dressed as fictional characters, also known as Star Wars die-hard-fans or fanatics.

In some way, he was being a jerk, yes.. 
but in another, was it necessary to resort to such violence?

Its so unbecoming of the generations of 'NOW' to get violent over something so trivial.

How can you behave in a way that strongly portrays that another human life is less important then knowing what finally happens in the finale of the galactic crisis that doesn't even exist.. I can't even..

Just yesterday, a cousin told me an incident where a mother was beaten by her son, flesh and blood, because she didn't cook that particular day, being unhealthy that day. She didn't want him to be reported because of a mother's love.

Why isn't this being put on billboards and EDMs and radios or even news? 
You might think its such small matter. But really.. priorities have turned 180 degrees. I feel so disgusted by this action of no shame towards a crime bigger then murder. Yes, bigger then murder, having even groan at a mother to me is such a sin. Don't ask why, people all over the world should know why.

But in the end, I'm a Star Wars fan too..
I will watch this 'twisted imagination of a man's dream' movie someday, 
and I know I'm gonna love it.

I will reminisce of the days I had a crush on the log-like actor Hayden Christensen, 
my oh ever so charismatic Harrison Ford,
the day I discovered gorgeous man Liam Neeson,
and my forever young imaginary lover Ewan McGregor.. 

Something about Irish man that just screams my name and I melt... sigh

To end things in good term...

What I'm trying to say is, Real life occurrences deserves to get high publicity as fiction.
Everyday we were having 'third world late Star Wars movie watchers' problems...

Everywhere else there are third world problems getting dog poo...
world hunger, over-population, fatal disease, discrimination, domestic violence, bombing, shootings, assassinations, murders, human trafficking, bully and terrible choices of presidency candidates...

This is just the tip of the never ending dying world of today. Go figure.

Dear men/women with power and money,

Have you no heart?
What are we all doing while bombs are release to our fellow human brothers and sisters?
Are you sleeping soundly at night while they keep one eye open?
Do you eat breakfast, lunch, brunch, hi-tea and dinner while these people probably starve day in & day out?
Do you travel over high clouds in your planes and jets while these people cannot leave home because it's their heritage, it is dying and they have nowhere to go?
Do you splurge on holiday vacations and brand sales while these people can't even buy bread?
No matter how successful you are today, while this inhumane attacks are still happening, you still lose for doing nothing. Your money and power will never make you happy or content.
You will always be despised by many, your life may never be fulfilling

To the men/women with power and money