Words you never voice out will never be heard..
We just hurt in the dark, we'll just dwell in our own dark feelings..
I do understand what it means to not belong
I apparently feel it 23/7 a day, I give myself a break on the 24th hour
I give reasons and calm myself on the 24th hour just to stop me from doing stupid shit
I give reasons to myself and hope tomorrow will be different, tomorrow might be better
Tomorrow has the secret of the unending hope we all dream of
the wish of Tomorrow is what's keeping me going and alive..
I need to be alive for tomorrow.. only until my time is up
Self Reminder
A weekend..
How do I spend my weekend..
So how do I spend it? What did I do? Was it interesting?
It was suppose to be some family 'quality time' together
BUT
It was spent on another wedding of someone I dont know
It was the wedding of the grandchildren of someone who has passed away..
Its very interesting because that someone who I don't know or might never get to appreciate better
was someone who took care of my grandfather when he got shot.
In his police days.. I don't know what the exact scenario was, but what I imagined it would have been...
Forrest Gump? Saving Pvt Ryan? Rambo?
What matters is this man was there loyally helping my grandfather.. So..
I dont think it matters that I know him or I like him or not,
I have to go to this event in honour of him,
Because if he wasn't there, my generation.. My Mum's generation might be different, and I might not be here so there..
PS: Food was great :)
Its Different
I guess growing up is a continuous process, I haven't been that lucky cause in whatever I do, I'm just... Average, I was really good at something like.. drawing...
What happened? why did I stopped? I can't do it as well as I did.. To tell the truth I've become soo Lazy.. that I'm not sure where I stand right now
Will I survive, looks like I am my own enemy and Friend.. Cause if I don't do it, I'm sure as Hell Nobody will do anything..
Just keep holding on, Just a little more *under my breath*
i Dont Know
Im seriously thinking of getting my life straightened out, theres Umrah to think about plus I dont want my grades to drop below 3.0 CGPA.. pfft...
and the awesome part is I night be an aunt this year.. Uuuuh... I feel so awesome right now!!!
nway, life is fun lately.. not feeling the need to make anyone other then me happy, I wear what I want and be where I want.. I am what I want now and am happy.. why I say this? its cause I have been trying to please everyone, but never myself..
its not that I dont enjoy my past, its just that I dont feel like I have lived the fullest that I wanted to, like theres a huge hole in the pitt of my heart..
always envying friends that have done so much to tick the 'yes' in their bucket list. well what about mine? my bucket list.. its not even half done..
No I dont feel the need to explain this feeling but I do hope you understand...
till then, just go to sleep you incompetent Vampires..
Heres Us
an update to our normal routine of pestering the lecturers and making them go crazy... while chillin snappin pics with my new laptop... MacBook Pro (show off)
please bare with me when I say Im gettin old but my soul is12
